liberated

2006-04-08T22:34:00.000-07:00

hello.

2006-03-03T19:43:00.000-08:00

listening to : David DeGraw - Chariot

i swear. blogger is so unbelievable. i typed to long about something indept and it just shuts down on me. what is that. i am slightly annoyed right now. and i typed something so freaking long. anyhows. people need to see this(: i shall curb my irrtation and continue.

people. the most complex figures of life. and i am not talking about Biology. ahaah. what i dont understand is. why is it so hard for people to look past the person's surface and into his personality deep inside? am i the only one able to understand how a person feels and thinks? am i the only one who cares for people no matter how they look like, think like or do?

why is the human perspective so hard to grasp? is it that hard to understand how someone is feeling? am i the only one who is able to relate to different people, understand who they are, what kind of personality they have? am i the only one who is Fair? why are people so deluded by what they actually see in someone? am i the only one to have sort out my own thoughts?

your thoughts are hard to sort, but if you dont, you'll be influenced by how you think of someone. if she or he is someone important to you, you'll think she or he is the most beautiful thing alive. if you dont particularly like someone, you'll think she or he is someone to be ignorant to. i do agree, putting aside your thoughts on someone is indeed hard. but if you dont see it in a fair way, the situation is usually messed up with results you dont wish to think about.

i think. people are all Equal. no matter how they look like, no matter what they do, no matter how they speak, no matter what language they speak, no matter what happens. we are all the same. our perspective on the world is the same. but why are some people so bothered about their own thoughts of someone? we are all the same. doesnt mean you do something for someone, there is something happening between you both. doesnt mean you smile at a random person, means you like him or her. i smile at people on the street too. and i bet, they are thinking how retarded i am(: but in a way, i think, their day is brightened a little, by someone silly like me(:

it is also hard almost impossible to make someone think in the same light you are thinking. if you are thinking in a way that is fair. many people are deluded. by the outer surface of someone. have you ever made a friend, without caring how someone looks? how someone acts in Public? but made friends by knowing their inner personality? by understanding what kind of thinking he or she possesses?

i do agree, people talk to one another are at least 50% affected by how they look and act in front of others. but whats important is the inside. if you cant understand their inner self, you can forget about being close friends and beyond. maybe a frequent hello on the streets when you two meet is fine, but if you dont understand him or her, whats there to talk about? everyone has their own perspective, but if everyone is Fair in their thinking and kindness of others, there would really be Peace and harmony. there wouldnt be the existance of the words Hate, Envy, Jealously and whatnot. there would not be petty fights and violent reactions to one another.

all i want to say, is that people should take the time to know someone that is not to be affected by the way he looks. but by the way he or she actually Thinks. there, the connection would be made. there would not be any snide comments on how a person looks, that may Hurt each other, and that would be extremely selfish.

the above mentioned are all my thinking. you may disagree, but i dont mind. means you have some more thinking to do about how a human behaves(: have a great day and think if you have ever cared or loved someone without caring how she or he looks and behaves? :D i have.

2006-03-02T20:14:00.000-08:00

listening to : BackStreet Boys - Show Me the Meaning of Being Lonely

training todays(: umm. no comment, actually. though wanmei was hurting in her stomach): patpat yeahs(: and we'll do our Best for tomorrow's Trials! and fine. ahha. i'll give you liberty to scold me if i am Slow :D hehh.

SHERILYN IS RETARDED.

or maybe not. ahha. but shes a pretty good friend. minus all the sarcasm and insane ideas XD hey wait. i am like that too. ahhahahahaha.

aiyar. nothing to blog about. all i know is that i havent exactly been completing my homework on time. and i am getting lots of black faces from teachers. heex. not exactly good is it. hahah.

fine. shall be good. and do ALL the homework now(:

glad. that You met Me.

2006-03-01T19:25:00.000-08:00

listening to : Jesse McCartney - Because You Live

Staring out at the rain with a heavy heart
It's the end of the world in my mind
Then your voice pulls me back like a wake up call
I've been looking for the answer
SomewhereI couldn't see that it was right there
But now I know what I didn't know

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky

It's alright, I survived, I'm alive again
Cuz of you, made it through every storm
What is life, what's the use if your killing time
I'm so glad I found an angel
SomeoneWho was there when all my hopes fell
I wanna fly, looking in your eyes

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky
Because you live, I live

Because you live there's a reason why
I carry on when I lose the fight
I want to give what you've given me always
Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has everything I need to survive
Because you live... I live I live...

if you are happy,
i'll be happy with you.
if you are sad,
i'll be sad with you.
if you need someone to hit or scream at,
i'm here for you.
if you need a hug or a kiss,
i'll be more than willing to give it to you.

i love you, Dearie.
tat a promise(;

2006-02-26T22:03:00.000-08:00

listening to : All Saints - Pure Shores

Sports Heats on Friday was stupid. ahhaha. there was a period when i was so Distraught and Self-Demeaning. hahaha. its for a reason okays. sigh. i came in freaking last for the Sec3 400m race. LOLx. i so suck. ahhaha. but then. i didnt train. i wasnt totally prepared for the race. i didnt like know until 1 day before? heex. NOT MY FAULT OKAYS :D

anyhows. hahaha. i told Dearie about it. he was totally frantic about me crying. hahaha. so cute(: but i didnt expect him to be so concerned(: he sent like 10 messages in 1 sitting? lovelovelove :D

training. we got so much to do. we got so much to say! find one day, we are going to set some ground rules :D and hopefully, they work(: and we are shifting into competition mood already. rightrightright! XD and mei, you are not allowed to comment that we are going slow(: or else. you wont see the light of another day. Mwaha. if i cant win in the Heats, we are going to rock in the Nationals(: ZETTAI!

ohoh. and something happened during training yesterday? on Saturday. yeps. we were training as usual and me and mei were coming back from the 1000m mark. we were supposed to be doing hard effort. ahhaha. then whilst doing it, we approached a whole team of AC boats? they were red. ahha. and we were approaching 500m. one of the reddie boats saw our juniors in the Stark Blue Boats and our Infamous Yellow Shirts and started commenting. he was like, Crescent! Block the friggin 500m! !*(&^&amp;amp;*((&^&#@! forgot what he said, but it wasnt nice. since they were spanning out so widely, we managed to row in between them. INFLITRATE THE ENEMY. LOL. so then, we had reddies on our left as well as on our right. then whilst he was still talking about our school, his friend was laughing. his friend was on our right and he was on our left. his friend was like, Hey, There's A Crescent Boat Beside Us. (in chinese) my expression must have been comical. it felt something like this : =.O

wahlao. ahha. talk about us liddat right. stupid. they are juniors what. how to expect them to know? dangg. i wanted to say : EXCUSE THEM, THEY ARE OUR JUNIORS AND ARE STILL GETTING ACUSTOMED TO MACRITCHIE. WE ARE EXTREMELY SORRY THAT THEY ARE BLOCKING YOUR WAY. AND COMMENTING BADLY ABOUT ANOTHER SCHOOL ISNT EXACTLY GENTLEMANLY ON YOUR PART. geez. but then, i decided against it. sigh. so we reached 500m. the reddie on our left shouted: OI, CRESCENT! MOVE ASIDE. i was like. move aside. move aside where? not making sense is it. so funny. then well, me and mei are racing 1000m and they were racing 500m. so i was freaking unsettled. and i didnt want them to overtake us and i didnt want them to think they can push us around like that. AIYAR. i was not exactly annoyed but somehow amused, so, according to wanmei, i was paddling like Siao. ahhaha. she compared it to Helicopter. LOL. i wasnt even aware that i was paddling that fast. until at the last point, she was like, i cant follow your cycles. LOL. i am so sorry yeahs(: but it must have been my inner fury again. ahhahahha. *looks innocent.

and about Bernice and Her K4. ahahhahah. she was practically swooning over the so called 4 Hot K4s. LOL! i am not involved, i swear XD